my new earring rack.. handmade by me. concept by nowie
Friday, September 24, 2004
The Diary of a Resident Advisor: Zandi De Jesus
Wow. It's been a really long time since i've written in here. It's Friday of week zero.. my THIRD year of college. Time really flies. I can't believe I'm a junior. I wanna stay here forever!!!
So this year will be totally different from my first two years at school... I'm an RA (Resident Advisor). I am responsible for half of Africa Hall in ERC. That's 56 freshman total. Geez. Right now I'm just worrying about memorizing all their names. It's been pretty chill so far. I think my residents like me. We'll see how long that lasts. HA.
I've been in San Diego for almost a month already. I got here on August 30th and moved into my RA room... which I must say is friggin awesome. I have so much space here compared to my last two rooms that I don't know what to do with it. The only thing is that all the other res hall RAs have two closets, and I only have one. We think it's because my building was the last one built and they were in a hurry to finish it for the students, so they just said.. eh, what the heck, this RA won't notice! Well guess what people... I NOTICED! But it's all good. Thanks to friends and IKEA, I have improvised and used my space wisely.
Before all the students got here, I had three weeks of RA training. The first week we all stayed in one res hall together so we could bond and get to know each other better. Some of the RAs got their own room, and some were assigned roommates. At first, I was pretty bummed that I didn't get my own room, but when I met my roommate and got a chance to talk to her, I was so thankful. Her name is Libby. She's the RA in Asante in I-House. I'm pretty sure that God placed her as my roommate for a reason. We talked a whole lot about so many things, including God. I really liked her. This was actually my first time in college to ever have a roommate. Too bad it only lasted a week. Anyway, I got to know a few of the RAs pretty well as we shared the same struggles and frustrations during training. It turned out that my OL (orientation leader) from freshman year was an RA too... Edgar is pretty awesome. I love hanging around him because he makes me laugh so freakin much. I also bonded pretty well with the baby of our staff, Mel. She's small like me.. but power-packed... like me too. She's only a second year and is turning 19 in a few weeks... but she's definitely a confident woman who knows what she wants. I like that. I also met another RA named Richard. I think I bonded with him the most... wait, no. I know I did. For some reason, we clicked. I think it was our mutual obsession with Napoleon Dynamite. If any of you who are reading this haven't watched that movie... call me up and I'd be glad to go with you and see it again. Hilarious. Anyway... He's this Korean cowboy (by cowboy I mean, he loves his cowboy hat, and worked on a ranch and all that good stuff. very cool.) dude from Pasadena. But he's not the typical Korean dude... the kind I knew from grade school. He's definitely different... and I think that's why I like him. He's really into music-- to be more specific, the guitar, John Mayer, and country. Country? Yeah... country. At first I was like... um, could we please change the station? But it kinda grew on me and I'm starting to like it. My favorite country songs right now are Gretchen Wilson's "Redneck Woman" and Tim McGraw's "Live Like You Were Dying." Go listen to them. Me likey. Rich is a Poli Sci major and he knows a lot about politics and the election this year. At least, to me he does. Especially since I have no idea what I'm talking about when it comes to the election and politics. Anyway, I think the best part about him is that he makes me laugh all the freakin time. During training, we were always crackin jokes and being obnoxious. We always joke that our supervisors are going to fire us cuz we're so flippin rowdy. I'm definitely glad I met him.
We went on a retreat to Pacific Palisades during our second week of training. That was fun. We stayed at this retreat house called Aldersgate Retreat House. Supposedly it's haunted. Being the extreme scaredy cat that I am, I sat out of all the scary story sessions and the Sardines (backwards hide and seek in the dark). We got to go to 3rd street. That was fun since I haven't been there in so long. We also went to the Museum of Tolerance. The last time I went there, I think I was in middle school. I love field trips. Anyway, that was really interesting. At the end of our retreat we went to this meditation center called Lake Shrine. The place was nice and peaceful. I got a little meditation done, but Rich and I, being the obnoxious kids that we are, were messing around with my digital camera and interviewing people. Crazy kids.
When we got back, our last week was mostly sessions and preparing for the residents to come. I was so nervous and scared. I think I was most nervous for the building meeting. I had to do that one alone. We'll talk more about that later though. Anyway. So I'm the RA for Africa Hall and we had to choose themes for our buildings. What theme could be more appropriate than The Lion King? I know right?! It's perfect. I made door tags for each door with clipart from the movie and I found a font that looked "African." I also made a newsletter that I must say looks pretty darn good. Each floor has their own character to name their suite: Mufasa, Sarabi, Simba, Nala, Zazu, Rafiki, Timon, and Pumba. They actually use them to identify which part of the building they're in! That's exciting to me. But then again, I get excited about everything.
Move-in weekend was pretty smooth. There were tons of parents with their cameras... taking pictures of their babies' dorm rooms.. I even saw a mom cry as she kissed her daughter goodbye. How sweet :'( Surprisingly, all the events during Welcome Week had awesome attendance. Freshmen came out to meet people and to get free food... which is always worth letting your "too cool for school" act go. The biggest surprise to me was the attendance at our Glow in the Dark Capture the Flag event. About 400 residents showed up! We gave half of them blue glow in the dark necklaces and the other half orange. They went crazy... After about 10-15 min of that, we decided to switch things up and play the biggest game of Dodgeball ever. It was hilarious. OH MY GAS. Let me tell you. I was dying of laughter... mostly because of Edgar though. He was screaming at the kids... "YOU'RE OUT!" and reffing the game. I love that man. So entertaining.
The All Campus Dance was interesting as well. Mind you... I've never gone to any of these events during the past two years that i've been here at UCSD. I felt like a freshman... but cooler though cuz I knew hella people and cuz I was wearing my oh so cool RA name tag that the reslife staff so graciously gave us. Speaking of gracious gifts... before I go on with the dance details, let me tell you that I freakin love my supervisors! At our last dinner together during training, we all got free whiteboards, school supplies, and $20 to Pier 1 Imports! Geez... You probably guessed that I was pretty darn excited about that. I was going crazy and danced all around the tables and the waiters and waitresses. Good thing we were eating outside too, cuz they would've probably asked me to leave had we been inside!
Ok. So back to the All Campus Dance. That thing was freakin packed! They held it on Library Walk just outside of Price Center. My friends were djing and emceeing... so talented are my prens... I tell you. Anyway, hardly anyone recognized me because of my haircut. I got double takes from everyone I waved to. I saw Samie, Ellen, and a bunch of KP folks. It was fun for about an hour, but after Rich and I had an awful time trying to find each other using our ever so useful cell phones (not really, they were useless since there's barely any signal in Price Center and the music was way too loud to have a conversation anyway)... we decided to leave.
Also... during this past month, I've been to the beach more times that I've been the past two years I've been here in San Diego. I've tried surfing too... It's pretty fun, but definitely something I have to work on. Hopefully by the end of this year, I'll be decent enough for you to call me a real San Diego surfer girl. HA. yeah right.
The UnOlympics were fun too. It's a competition between all six colleges at UCSD for the Golden Shoe. Basically it's a day of field games, cheers, and dances. Last year ERC won. This year, although we danced and screamed our hearts out, we got 3rd place. Das ok. Next time na lang.
I got to see my EmBeeZiuM family this week... Mark, Bien, and Miguel. It's crazy how much one summer can do. I really missed them this summer and I know we've all grown a whole bunch in different ways. They're all really involved in InterVarsity Christian Fellowship now that Banyuhay has merged with them. Last year our schedules were almost the same. This year, I'll be doing totally different activities. I'm gonna miss doing almost everything with them. Maybe we'll still do our weekly dinners together just for the heck of it. I'm getting so sad just thinking about it all... boo.
So classes started yesterday and I've kept my schedule pretty chill since I knew that this quarter would be busy. I have 3 psych classes and one philosophy class. We'll see how 4 classes go for me... I might drop one. I'm really interested to see how this year goes. I'll be involved in different things, hanging around with different people and growing in so many different ways. Last night I was so homesick and lonely that I pulled out all my pictures from high school and stuff. Ellen, my best friend from middle school, visited me... I'm glad she did. It's good to have her here. She reminds me of home. I talked to Jessica Johnson from high school for a while too. I miss her. She's so busy at USC already! Oh I emailed my Senior Class Advisor, Debbie too yesterday. That's how much I miss people from back home.
Mel came to my rescue last night when I was lonely. We watched How to Lose A Guy in Ten Days together. Good movie. We were big bums on the couch eating cookies and cream ice cream--- mmmm... so good. Rich bought a whole gallon of it cuz we eat it so much. Anyway, I was so into the movie that I called my mom an hour late last night--- SORRY MOM! I hope she's not mad at me anymore. I missed my family a whole bunch last night. I listened to Nini's "The Nearness of You" rendition. It made me feel better. Thanks Ni.
Anyway, I think that's all for now. I'm adding pictures to this blog to show you all the full experience of my RA year.
"You think you know... but... you porgat." --Jaymar Cabebe, "The Diary of A Pilipino" from Touchblue.net.
So this year will be totally different from my first two years at school... I'm an RA (Resident Advisor). I am responsible for half of Africa Hall in ERC. That's 56 freshman total. Geez. Right now I'm just worrying about memorizing all their names. It's been pretty chill so far. I think my residents like me. We'll see how long that lasts. HA.
I've been in San Diego for almost a month already. I got here on August 30th and moved into my RA room... which I must say is friggin awesome. I have so much space here compared to my last two rooms that I don't know what to do with it. The only thing is that all the other res hall RAs have two closets, and I only have one. We think it's because my building was the last one built and they were in a hurry to finish it for the students, so they just said.. eh, what the heck, this RA won't notice! Well guess what people... I NOTICED! But it's all good. Thanks to friends and IKEA, I have improvised and used my space wisely.
Before all the students got here, I had three weeks of RA training. The first week we all stayed in one res hall together so we could bond and get to know each other better. Some of the RAs got their own room, and some were assigned roommates. At first, I was pretty bummed that I didn't get my own room, but when I met my roommate and got a chance to talk to her, I was so thankful. Her name is Libby. She's the RA in Asante in I-House. I'm pretty sure that God placed her as my roommate for a reason. We talked a whole lot about so many things, including God. I really liked her. This was actually my first time in college to ever have a roommate. Too bad it only lasted a week. Anyway, I got to know a few of the RAs pretty well as we shared the same struggles and frustrations during training. It turned out that my OL (orientation leader) from freshman year was an RA too... Edgar is pretty awesome. I love hanging around him because he makes me laugh so freakin much. I also bonded pretty well with the baby of our staff, Mel. She's small like me.. but power-packed... like me too. She's only a second year and is turning 19 in a few weeks... but she's definitely a confident woman who knows what she wants. I like that. I also met another RA named Richard. I think I bonded with him the most... wait, no. I know I did. For some reason, we clicked. I think it was our mutual obsession with Napoleon Dynamite. If any of you who are reading this haven't watched that movie... call me up and I'd be glad to go with you and see it again. Hilarious. Anyway... He's this Korean cowboy (by cowboy I mean, he loves his cowboy hat, and worked on a ranch and all that good stuff. very cool.) dude from Pasadena. But he's not the typical Korean dude... the kind I knew from grade school. He's definitely different... and I think that's why I like him. He's really into music-- to be more specific, the guitar, John Mayer, and country. Country? Yeah... country. At first I was like... um, could we please change the station? But it kinda grew on me and I'm starting to like it. My favorite country songs right now are Gretchen Wilson's "Redneck Woman" and Tim McGraw's "Live Like You Were Dying." Go listen to them. Me likey. Rich is a Poli Sci major and he knows a lot about politics and the election this year. At least, to me he does. Especially since I have no idea what I'm talking about when it comes to the election and politics. Anyway, I think the best part about him is that he makes me laugh all the freakin time. During training, we were always crackin jokes and being obnoxious. We always joke that our supervisors are going to fire us cuz we're so flippin rowdy. I'm definitely glad I met him.
We went on a retreat to Pacific Palisades during our second week of training. That was fun. We stayed at this retreat house called Aldersgate Retreat House. Supposedly it's haunted. Being the extreme scaredy cat that I am, I sat out of all the scary story sessions and the Sardines (backwards hide and seek in the dark). We got to go to 3rd street. That was fun since I haven't been there in so long. We also went to the Museum of Tolerance. The last time I went there, I think I was in middle school. I love field trips. Anyway, that was really interesting. At the end of our retreat we went to this meditation center called Lake Shrine. The place was nice and peaceful. I got a little meditation done, but Rich and I, being the obnoxious kids that we are, were messing around with my digital camera and interviewing people. Crazy kids.
When we got back, our last week was mostly sessions and preparing for the residents to come. I was so nervous and scared. I think I was most nervous for the building meeting. I had to do that one alone. We'll talk more about that later though. Anyway. So I'm the RA for Africa Hall and we had to choose themes for our buildings. What theme could be more appropriate than The Lion King? I know right?! It's perfect. I made door tags for each door with clipart from the movie and I found a font that looked "African." I also made a newsletter that I must say looks pretty darn good. Each floor has their own character to name their suite: Mufasa, Sarabi, Simba, Nala, Zazu, Rafiki, Timon, and Pumba. They actually use them to identify which part of the building they're in! That's exciting to me. But then again, I get excited about everything.
Move-in weekend was pretty smooth. There were tons of parents with their cameras... taking pictures of their babies' dorm rooms.. I even saw a mom cry as she kissed her daughter goodbye. How sweet :'( Surprisingly, all the events during Welcome Week had awesome attendance. Freshmen came out to meet people and to get free food... which is always worth letting your "too cool for school" act go. The biggest surprise to me was the attendance at our Glow in the Dark Capture the Flag event. About 400 residents showed up! We gave half of them blue glow in the dark necklaces and the other half orange. They went crazy... After about 10-15 min of that, we decided to switch things up and play the biggest game of Dodgeball ever. It was hilarious. OH MY GAS. Let me tell you. I was dying of laughter... mostly because of Edgar though. He was screaming at the kids... "YOU'RE OUT!" and reffing the game. I love that man. So entertaining.
The All Campus Dance was interesting as well. Mind you... I've never gone to any of these events during the past two years that i've been here at UCSD. I felt like a freshman... but cooler though cuz I knew hella people and cuz I was wearing my oh so cool RA name tag that the reslife staff so graciously gave us. Speaking of gracious gifts... before I go on with the dance details, let me tell you that I freakin love my supervisors! At our last dinner together during training, we all got free whiteboards, school supplies, and $20 to Pier 1 Imports! Geez... You probably guessed that I was pretty darn excited about that. I was going crazy and danced all around the tables and the waiters and waitresses. Good thing we were eating outside too, cuz they would've probably asked me to leave had we been inside!
Ok. So back to the All Campus Dance. That thing was freakin packed! They held it on Library Walk just outside of Price Center. My friends were djing and emceeing... so talented are my prens... I tell you. Anyway, hardly anyone recognized me because of my haircut. I got double takes from everyone I waved to. I saw Samie, Ellen, and a bunch of KP folks. It was fun for about an hour, but after Rich and I had an awful time trying to find each other using our ever so useful cell phones (not really, they were useless since there's barely any signal in Price Center and the music was way too loud to have a conversation anyway)... we decided to leave.
Also... during this past month, I've been to the beach more times that I've been the past two years I've been here in San Diego. I've tried surfing too... It's pretty fun, but definitely something I have to work on. Hopefully by the end of this year, I'll be decent enough for you to call me a real San Diego surfer girl. HA. yeah right.
The UnOlympics were fun too. It's a competition between all six colleges at UCSD for the Golden Shoe. Basically it's a day of field games, cheers, and dances. Last year ERC won. This year, although we danced and screamed our hearts out, we got 3rd place. Das ok. Next time na lang.
I got to see my EmBeeZiuM family this week... Mark, Bien, and Miguel. It's crazy how much one summer can do. I really missed them this summer and I know we've all grown a whole bunch in different ways. They're all really involved in InterVarsity Christian Fellowship now that Banyuhay has merged with them. Last year our schedules were almost the same. This year, I'll be doing totally different activities. I'm gonna miss doing almost everything with them. Maybe we'll still do our weekly dinners together just for the heck of it. I'm getting so sad just thinking about it all... boo.
So classes started yesterday and I've kept my schedule pretty chill since I knew that this quarter would be busy. I have 3 psych classes and one philosophy class. We'll see how 4 classes go for me... I might drop one. I'm really interested to see how this year goes. I'll be involved in different things, hanging around with different people and growing in so many different ways. Last night I was so homesick and lonely that I pulled out all my pictures from high school and stuff. Ellen, my best friend from middle school, visited me... I'm glad she did. It's good to have her here. She reminds me of home. I talked to Jessica Johnson from high school for a while too. I miss her. She's so busy at USC already! Oh I emailed my Senior Class Advisor, Debbie too yesterday. That's how much I miss people from back home.
Mel came to my rescue last night when I was lonely. We watched How to Lose A Guy in Ten Days together. Good movie. We were big bums on the couch eating cookies and cream ice cream--- mmmm... so good. Rich bought a whole gallon of it cuz we eat it so much. Anyway, I was so into the movie that I called my mom an hour late last night--- SORRY MOM! I hope she's not mad at me anymore. I missed my family a whole bunch last night. I listened to Nini's "The Nearness of You" rendition. It made me feel better. Thanks Ni.
Anyway, I think that's all for now. I'm adding pictures to this blog to show you all the full experience of my RA year.
"You think you know... but... you porgat." --Jaymar Cabebe, "The Diary of A Pilipino" from Touchblue.net.
Saturday, July 31, 2004
I hate school...
and studying... and finals...
today is my Psyc 163 final. i suck at memorizing. i suck at studying. boo.
i'm stalling... delaying, if you will. i should be studying right now. but i'm not. what a bad student.
SOMEONE HELP ME!!!
today is my Psyc 163 final. i suck at memorizing. i suck at studying. boo.
i'm stalling... delaying, if you will. i should be studying right now. but i'm not. what a bad student.
SOMEONE HELP ME!!!
Thursday, July 08, 2004
im so hungry i'm shaking
im at miramar college in the computer lab waiting for my stats teacher to get in... im so hungry i'm shaking.
summer school sucks. well not really. i really like my ucsd classes. thac 1 (intro to acting is WONDERFUL) and psyc 163 (abnormal psych) is cool cuz the prof is pretty funny. as for stats here at miramar... the drive sucks... the hours suck... and the hw sucks... i hate it!
boo. ok that's enough complaining. thank you Lord for the privelege to go to school. yay!
tin tin is in town visiting... i've been her guardian for the past few days... i felt bad that she had to go to class with me so i dropped her off with kuya marker today. hopefully she has way more fun than i'll have tonight. on tuesday she hung out with kuya ian... they went to chuck and cheese (as my lola would call it). tomorrow we're going to legoland... what a spoiled child! hahah jk. but she is very much blessed. i just wish she had a sister closer in age to her. like ni had toe and i had cole...
anyway... there's a lot on my mind. i've been going through a hard and lonely time lately. too much to explain. just pray for me if you're reading this. i need to find my everything in Jesus.
sim - its so weird that u texted when i was singing eye steal bee leave. hope your car is doing ok. magals.
im still hungry.. im still shaking... all i've had to eat today is a lunchable.. which used to be so filling! and now i only have cinnamon graham goldfishies... and milanos... sounds good... but not substantial enough to fill me up... it'll hold me over til 9 though. ugh... this 3 hours of stats is NOT fun! please someone make it stop!!
ok i'm whining again. i could be doing my hw right now since i'm so behind... but i'm not. i have two midterms on tuesday and i haven't started studying for either yet. what a slacker. i want to be an actress!!! hahah...
im so random... poverty of content.. that's what this is. haha. im a nerdy psych major.
give me food!
summer school sucks. well not really. i really like my ucsd classes. thac 1 (intro to acting is WONDERFUL) and psyc 163 (abnormal psych) is cool cuz the prof is pretty funny. as for stats here at miramar... the drive sucks... the hours suck... and the hw sucks... i hate it!
boo. ok that's enough complaining. thank you Lord for the privelege to go to school. yay!
tin tin is in town visiting... i've been her guardian for the past few days... i felt bad that she had to go to class with me so i dropped her off with kuya marker today. hopefully she has way more fun than i'll have tonight. on tuesday she hung out with kuya ian... they went to chuck and cheese (as my lola would call it). tomorrow we're going to legoland... what a spoiled child! hahah jk. but she is very much blessed. i just wish she had a sister closer in age to her. like ni had toe and i had cole...
anyway... there's a lot on my mind. i've been going through a hard and lonely time lately. too much to explain. just pray for me if you're reading this. i need to find my everything in Jesus.
sim - its so weird that u texted when i was singing eye steal bee leave. hope your car is doing ok. magals.
im still hungry.. im still shaking... all i've had to eat today is a lunchable.. which used to be so filling! and now i only have cinnamon graham goldfishies... and milanos... sounds good... but not substantial enough to fill me up... it'll hold me over til 9 though. ugh... this 3 hours of stats is NOT fun! please someone make it stop!!
ok i'm whining again. i could be doing my hw right now since i'm so behind... but i'm not. i have two midterms on tuesday and i haven't started studying for either yet. what a slacker. i want to be an actress!!! hahah...
im so random... poverty of content.. that's what this is. haha. im a nerdy psych major.
give me food!
Monday, June 14, 2004
Tuesday, June 08, 2004
Decision 2004: Where I'm living
So if you looked down below, you saw that I have recently been looking for a place to stay this summer...
I would like to tell everyone who has ever doubted that God answers prayers or that God provides fully... THAT HE DOES!
Just as I was about to take matters into my own hands, God told me to call up Nowie and ask her about her place. She said that her place in Mira Mesa was free until the end of June when the lease was up. Then her, Ferry, and Sheryl were going to move into a place in La Jolla in the beginning of July. SOOOO... Nowie said that I could move into her room for the low low cost of just the utilities and then take her spot at the condo in La Jolla as soon as they move into there... WOW! Praise the Lord. He really provided.
Praise you Jesus.. Thank you.
I would like to tell everyone who has ever doubted that God answers prayers or that God provides fully... THAT HE DOES!
Just as I was about to take matters into my own hands, God told me to call up Nowie and ask her about her place. She said that her place in Mira Mesa was free until the end of June when the lease was up. Then her, Ferry, and Sheryl were going to move into a place in La Jolla in the beginning of July. SOOOO... Nowie said that I could move into her room for the low low cost of just the utilities and then take her spot at the condo in La Jolla as soon as they move into there... WOW! Praise the Lord. He really provided.
Praise you Jesus.. Thank you.
1 down, 2 to go... (finals that is)
Today was the last day of LIHL 112 -- Heritage Tagalog. I took my final which was not that difficult. Ginang Nacu brought us some pan de sal and butter... and some oj for breakfast! She's sooooo freakin awesome! Here's a picture of my class and the 11 am class at the Song Festival this year.
Chocolate Heaven
THANK YOU KUYA MARKER!!! Ivy and I would like to say a BIG thank you to Mark Mora for being the best kuya of the year.
June 7, 2004: Finals week -- 3 AM in the ERC Computer Lab
MiZaRk112: mmm corndogs!
DjZee624: mmm i want one! we could really use some over here.
M: ok i'll bring some over
D: yay!
M: crapp that sounded like a serious yay
D: what are you talking about... it was
M: lol i knoe. that's what i said crapp
D: ok so just knock on the door when you get here and we'll open it for you. the door gets locked after 10.
M: lol no wayy
D: what?! that's messed up! toying with me, playing with my emotions and hunger!
M: are you seriously hungry?
D: are you seriously asking?
M: I used the root word serious
D: ...yes
M: Ivy too?
D: yeah she is
M: is there a microwave there?
D: no not here
M: do you guys like chocolate?
AND THE REST IS HISTORY!!
THANKS AGAIN!!! YOU'RE AWESOME!!
June 7, 2004: Finals week -- 3 AM in the ERC Computer Lab
MiZaRk112: mmm corndogs!
DjZee624: mmm i want one! we could really use some over here.
M: ok i'll bring some over
D: yay!
M: crapp that sounded like a serious yay
D: what are you talking about... it was
M: lol i knoe. that's what i said crapp
D: ok so just knock on the door when you get here and we'll open it for you. the door gets locked after 10.
M: lol no wayy
D: what?! that's messed up! toying with me, playing with my emotions and hunger!
M: are you seriously hungry?
D: are you seriously asking?
M: I used the root word serious
D: ...yes
M: Ivy too?
D: yeah she is
M: is there a microwave there?
D: no not here
M: do you guys like chocolate?
AND THE REST IS HISTORY!!
THANKS AGAIN!!! YOU'RE AWESOME!!
KPDC Girls
i found this picture on ivy's imagestation! yay! go kpdc girls! (kp dance crew -- pcc 2004)
Ivy and Me in the ERC Computer Lab
i'm sitting in the computer lab in erc... late night... trying to study for my tagalog final. but all i can do is distract myself with my weblog and uploading pictures!! ivy is sitting right next to me working so hard... why can't i do the same?! this picture is from the kp semi formal! for more pics.. go to www.imagestation.com/members/djzee624
Daniel Galang -- one who deserves RESPECT
daniel is one of my closest friends... today he was totally there for me when i need someone to talk to.. and he totally understood everything i was going through. i love this guy so much!
Gwen
like my new jacket? her name is Gwen. The other day at church Tobin said that I had a Gwen Stefani look going... YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
Sunday, June 06, 2004
Summer's coming
Wow.. I haven't posted in a while.
So the end of the year is coming up fast.
Things on my plate:
Finding a place to live from June 12th to August 7th.
Finding a job for the summer.
Studying for finals this week.
Staying focused on and obedient to God.
So right now my options for housing this summer are:
1. Costa Verde Apts (South Village) w/ Debra (taking Ishani's spot)
2. The Venetian w/ Jill, Rachel, and Kathy. (taking Laura's spot)
3. Costa Verde or a Condo in La Jolla w/ Ferry and Sheryl (taking Nowie's spot)
4. La Jolla Tennis Club
Ok. Time to pray about things.
Dear Lord,
First and foremost I want to praise you and thank you for who you are to me. I acknowledge that you are sovereign over everything... especially my life. Jesus, there are a lot of decisions to be made for this summer and I pray that you would guide me in making each one. I bring them all to you and trust that you will provide and care for me in the best way possible.
Father forgive me of my sins. I know that I have not been perfect.. and I never will be. I've been procrastinating a lot with my school stuff and haven't been focusing. Lord I love you and I want to be obedient in every aspect of my life.
Right now i want to lift up to you my living situation for this summer. I pray Lord that you would clearly speak to me. Please drown out my own selfish desires and show me what is best for me. I give these decisions up to you and know that you have a purpose and plan for everything.
I also lift up to you everything above that i listed.. my job, finals, being obedient... and all my deepest desires and burdens. Please take them from me. I want my will to conform to yours.
I love you Jesus. You know my heart is to worship you... please help me to show you everyday.
Your child,
Zandi
So the end of the year is coming up fast.
Things on my plate:
Finding a place to live from June 12th to August 7th.
Finding a job for the summer.
Studying for finals this week.
Staying focused on and obedient to God.
So right now my options for housing this summer are:
1. Costa Verde Apts (South Village) w/ Debra (taking Ishani's spot)
Cons:
a. I don't know the people. I found them through the UCSD Off Campus Housing website.
b. They aren't Christian.
c. They are all seniors.
Pros:
a. The location is close to EVERYTHING! School, Albertsons, Blockbuster, the Post Office, my friends who live in Costa Verde too, the pool, the mall... EVERYTHING!
b. The room is VERY VERY spacious. I get to use her full size bed, her desk, and half of her closet space.
c. Parking is easy. It's right off the street.
d. There is an elevator and the room is the FIRST room next to it. Moving my stuff won't be a pain in the butt.
e. The price is pretty good... one of the lowest. Only $341 for rent about $40 for utilities.
f. There is a washer and dryer in the unit.
2. The Venetian w/ Jill, Rachel, and Kathy. (taking Laura's spot)
Cons:
a. The room is small.
b. There are a heck of a lot of stairs to go up.
c. Parking is a little harder.
d. My roommates aren't active Christians.
e. It's a little more expensive -- $350 + 45 for utilities... that's almost $400.
f. Laura isn't leaving til a week after I need the place.
g. The kitchen is pretty small too.
Pros:
a. I know the girls... They're from KP.
b. The place is right next to the pool and the gym.
c. There is a washer and dryer in the unit.
d. It's pretty close to VONS and a whole bunch of other things.
e. It's just as close to school as Costa Verde.
3. Costa Verde or a Condo in La Jolla w/ Ferry and Sheryl (taking Nowie's spot)
Cons:
a. They're not moving in til mid July.
b. Not sure about the girls' faith.
c. It would be hard to move for the second time during the summer.
Pros:
a. I know and love the girls.
b. It's hecka cheap. Only $300 for rent and some for utilities.
c. Lots of space and storage cuz it'll be unfurnished.
d. I'd get to use Nowie's furniture -- a bed, desk, shelves and other containers.
e. They have to live in La Jolla so wherever they choose to live, it'll be close to school.
4. La Jolla Tennis Club
Pros:
a. Only $300 a month. COOL!
b. Living with April! COOL!
c. Closest out of all places to school and freeway.
d. Very spacious.
e. Not charged for utilities.
f. Talkative fun girls, very chill roommate.
g. Close to the Regents bus to school.
h. Amenities include cable modem, pool, washer/dryer, tennis court.
Cons:
a. Still not sure.. going to check it out RIGHT NOW! Praise the LORD!
b. Old.
c. Maybe too talkative...
d. Not as many amenities as Costa Verde.
e. Gym? I dont think so.. not sure.
f. Not so close to grocery or any friends.
g. Washer and dryer are downstairs in the garage... no like.
h. Lots of stairs.. No elevator.
Ok. Time to pray about things.
Dear Lord,
First and foremost I want to praise you and thank you for who you are to me. I acknowledge that you are sovereign over everything... especially my life. Jesus, there are a lot of decisions to be made for this summer and I pray that you would guide me in making each one. I bring them all to you and trust that you will provide and care for me in the best way possible.
Father forgive me of my sins. I know that I have not been perfect.. and I never will be. I've been procrastinating a lot with my school stuff and haven't been focusing. Lord I love you and I want to be obedient in every aspect of my life.
Right now i want to lift up to you my living situation for this summer. I pray Lord that you would clearly speak to me. Please drown out my own selfish desires and show me what is best for me. I give these decisions up to you and know that you have a purpose and plan for everything.
I also lift up to you everything above that i listed.. my job, finals, being obedient... and all my deepest desires and burdens. Please take them from me. I want my will to conform to yours.
I love you Jesus. You know my heart is to worship you... please help me to show you everyday.
Your child,
Zandi
Saturday, May 15, 2004
Happy 30th Anniversary Mom and Dad!
Today would have been my parent's 30th wedding anniversary. However, my dad's in heaven right now with Jesus... so yeah. Mom's here in San Diego with me and we're gonna take her out today. She's staying at the Torrey Pines Hilton down the street. Happy Anniversary.
So anyway, I had such weird dreams last night. I dreamt that i kept spilling things everywhere on people. I'm such a clutz (is that how you spell it?). And also, Toni had a concert, and we spent so much time practicing, but we didn't sing any of the songs that we practiced and the whole show lasted as long as a PCC! ECK.
Moving on.
It's been a while since i've written in here. Life has been SOOOO busy because of PCC, and now that it's over, it's a little better. PSST (Pilipino Students Saving Tagalog) is taking up more of my time now. But after this banquet is done, hopefully my schedule will be freed up.
Today I read Oswald Chamber's My Utmost For His Highest. It really caught my attention when he said, "You did not do anything to achieve your salvation, but you must do something to exhibit it." Salvation is free, yes, but once you receive it, it is your responsibility to share it and make it known to others that you have been saved. You can't just keep your free gift to yourself.
Two good passages related to this:
Philippians 2:14-16
Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life--in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.
1 Timothy 4:12
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
Jesus,
Today, I pray that your light shines through me and that I work at exhibiting my salvation to others. I pray that people would notice the difference that You have made in my life. Thank you for restoring me and refreshing me with Your Word and Your love.
I lift up to you my mom, who is alone today for her anniversary. Give her comfort Jesus when she feels sad. Help her to rejoice in the fact that Dad is with you. Help her to find joy when she has none. Fill her Lord with your love and wrap your loving arms around her.
God, I lift up to you the burdens in my life as well. I ask for strength when it seems like i have none left. I pray Lord that I may finish off this quarter strong. I also pray that you guide me in matters of the heart. You know Lord what is going on in my life and the choices that have been laid out in front of me. Help me to choose according to your word and your will. All i want to do is do your will.
I love you, Jesus.
In your most precious name I pray. Amen.
So anyway, I had such weird dreams last night. I dreamt that i kept spilling things everywhere on people. I'm such a clutz (is that how you spell it?). And also, Toni had a concert, and we spent so much time practicing, but we didn't sing any of the songs that we practiced and the whole show lasted as long as a PCC! ECK.
Moving on.
It's been a while since i've written in here. Life has been SOOOO busy because of PCC, and now that it's over, it's a little better. PSST (Pilipino Students Saving Tagalog) is taking up more of my time now. But after this banquet is done, hopefully my schedule will be freed up.
Today I read Oswald Chamber's My Utmost For His Highest. It really caught my attention when he said, "You did not do anything to achieve your salvation, but you must do something to exhibit it." Salvation is free, yes, but once you receive it, it is your responsibility to share it and make it known to others that you have been saved. You can't just keep your free gift to yourself.
Two good passages related to this:
Philippians 2:14-16
Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life--in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.
1 Timothy 4:12
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
Jesus,
Today, I pray that your light shines through me and that I work at exhibiting my salvation to others. I pray that people would notice the difference that You have made in my life. Thank you for restoring me and refreshing me with Your Word and Your love.
I lift up to you my mom, who is alone today for her anniversary. Give her comfort Jesus when she feels sad. Help her to rejoice in the fact that Dad is with you. Help her to find joy when she has none. Fill her Lord with your love and wrap your loving arms around her.
God, I lift up to you the burdens in my life as well. I ask for strength when it seems like i have none left. I pray Lord that I may finish off this quarter strong. I also pray that you guide me in matters of the heart. You know Lord what is going on in my life and the choices that have been laid out in front of me. Help me to choose according to your word and your will. All i want to do is do your will.
I love you, Jesus.
In your most precious name I pray. Amen.
Friday, April 02, 2004
It's been a while!
Wow... its been so long since i've posted. I feel like i've done so much and grown so much since i've last written in here. School has been hard for me lately.. especially with all the extracurricular things going on like PCC and our Bible study (now called Banyuhay, meaning basically "New Form of Life"). But nevertheless, God is amazing and continues to work in my life through people and through everyday events.
Let's give an update.
-I'm going to be an RA next year for ERC.
-I'm going to be in PCC playing Mandi Rigma (meaning warrior in Tagalog.. cool!)
-I've got a new booking agent named Christina Luna.
-I went to the Bay for Spring break and spent time with Jayme, Mark, Kuya Allen, the Palarcas, Drey, Anj, and Beng. It was an awesome week.
-The Bible study, Banyuhay is starting up this quarter. YAY!
-My hair is short and its highlighted what was supposed to be red... but looks brownish.
-After a unpleasant wake up call with school and money, I'm being more diligent with all my responsibilities.
-Three friends of mine recently received Christ into their lives: My ading Jeremy, Thomas, and Jerome. PRAISE THE LORD!
-Toni and a whole bunch of other awesome, beautiful talented people put together a concert last month and shared all of Toni's original music.
for pictures on all of these wonderful events, go to:
http://community.webshots.com/user/djzee624
and
http://community.webshots.com/user/zdejesus
Right now I want to take some time to tell my Jesus how thankful I am for all that He's doing in my life.
Jesus, my Savior,
I want to praise You for all that You are: Holy, Righteous, Sovereign, Loving, Kind, Gracious, Merciful... i could go on and on. You Abba, Father, are the Creator of this whole world. You created everything that lives and breathes... and somehow, although You're SUPER ALMIGHTY POWERFUL... You love a sinner like me. You love me. AMAZING.
Thank you Lord for your forgiveness that you give me because You died on the cross. I'm sorry and I confess that I have been so busy, too busy, to spend time with You. If I say that I love You... I need to show you and tell you everyday. Please forgive me and help me to show you everyday.
Thank you for the wonderful brothers and sisters you've blessed me with: Nowie, Mark, Miguel... all the wonderful new brothers and sisters at IV -- Ramiro, La Mikia, Althea... all my other wonderful friends from KP who love you-- Daniel, Ray, Jerome... oh i could go on. You continually give me more blessing through these people. And to think that I thought I wouldn't be able to handle being single. It is such a gift and a blessing to be single.. to serve you without limitations. JESUS THANK YOU.
Thank you for all the wonderful opportunities to share how much I love you-- even on the shuttle!
I pray that you would continually use me each day to further your kingdom and reach out to those who might not know you or who just need encouragement. Use Banyuhay for Your glory as well. Show us all how You want to use us. There are too many thoughts in my head to type out-- but Lord you know them. You know my concerns: a woman's role in the church, time management and discipline in school, my unsaved friends, Banyuhay, PCC, discipleship, my family, my personal walk with You...
I give all my burdens and concerns to You. Thank you for Your peace that transcends all understanding.
I love You. I love You Jesus.
Let's give an update.
-I'm going to be an RA next year for ERC.
-I'm going to be in PCC playing Mandi Rigma (meaning warrior in Tagalog.. cool!)
-I've got a new booking agent named Christina Luna.
-I went to the Bay for Spring break and spent time with Jayme, Mark, Kuya Allen, the Palarcas, Drey, Anj, and Beng. It was an awesome week.
-The Bible study, Banyuhay is starting up this quarter. YAY!
-My hair is short and its highlighted what was supposed to be red... but looks brownish.
-After a unpleasant wake up call with school and money, I'm being more diligent with all my responsibilities.
-Three friends of mine recently received Christ into their lives: My ading Jeremy, Thomas, and Jerome. PRAISE THE LORD!
-Toni and a whole bunch of other awesome, beautiful talented people put together a concert last month and shared all of Toni's original music.
for pictures on all of these wonderful events, go to:
http://community.webshots.com/user/djzee624
and
http://community.webshots.com/user/zdejesus
Right now I want to take some time to tell my Jesus how thankful I am for all that He's doing in my life.
Jesus, my Savior,
I want to praise You for all that You are: Holy, Righteous, Sovereign, Loving, Kind, Gracious, Merciful... i could go on and on. You Abba, Father, are the Creator of this whole world. You created everything that lives and breathes... and somehow, although You're SUPER ALMIGHTY POWERFUL... You love a sinner like me. You love me. AMAZING.
Thank you Lord for your forgiveness that you give me because You died on the cross. I'm sorry and I confess that I have been so busy, too busy, to spend time with You. If I say that I love You... I need to show you and tell you everyday. Please forgive me and help me to show you everyday.
Thank you for the wonderful brothers and sisters you've blessed me with: Nowie, Mark, Miguel... all the wonderful new brothers and sisters at IV -- Ramiro, La Mikia, Althea... all my other wonderful friends from KP who love you-- Daniel, Ray, Jerome... oh i could go on. You continually give me more blessing through these people. And to think that I thought I wouldn't be able to handle being single. It is such a gift and a blessing to be single.. to serve you without limitations. JESUS THANK YOU.
Thank you for all the wonderful opportunities to share how much I love you-- even on the shuttle!
I pray that you would continually use me each day to further your kingdom and reach out to those who might not know you or who just need encouragement. Use Banyuhay for Your glory as well. Show us all how You want to use us. There are too many thoughts in my head to type out-- but Lord you know them. You know my concerns: a woman's role in the church, time management and discipline in school, my unsaved friends, Banyuhay, PCC, discipleship, my family, my personal walk with You...
I give all my burdens and concerns to You. Thank you for Your peace that transcends all understanding.
I love You. I love You Jesus.
Monday, March 15, 2004
Today's Theme Song: Enough by Chris Tomlin
All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough
You are my supply
My breath of life
And still more awesome than I know
You are my reward
worth living for
And still more awesome than I know
All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough
You’re my sacrifice
Of greatest price
And still more awesome than I know
You’re my coming King
You are everything
And still more awesome than I know
More than all I want
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can say
You are more than enough for me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough
You are my supply
My breath of life
And still more awesome than I know
You are my reward
worth living for
And still more awesome than I know
All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need
You satisfy me with Your love
And all I have in You is more than enough
You’re my sacrifice
Of greatest price
And still more awesome than I know
You’re my coming King
You are everything
And still more awesome than I know
More than all I want
More than all I need
You are more than enough for me
More than all I know
More than all I can say
You are more than enough for me
Sunday, March 14, 2004
Where do I begin?
My heavenly Father,
I am overwhelmed with thoughts and feelings... with burdens and desires. I'm sitting here in my room thinking about you and how you've been working in my life. I'm overwhelmed. You consistently amaze me.
Lord you are AWESOME. These past few days and weeks have been such an experience. You are evident in my life. I see you in the people around me, in the places I go, and in the daily activities I experience. You are here. I wish I could begin to describe you in words... but as I search for the words, I'm left speechless. I have so many things to say that it overwhelms me and I can't seem to put it down in mere words, but i'll try anyway.. God you are:
Faithful
Perfect
Sovereign
Love
Forgiving
Merciful
Gracious
More than enough
Today I woke up at 6 am to drive back to San Diego from Glendale. On the way I prayed that you would bless today and dedicated it to you. You certainly did more than bless me. I brought Thomas and Jeremy to church. I did not know what you were going to do in their hearts today. It was more than I expected. Today they received you into their hearts. I praise you for that. My brothers will be in heaven with us one day.
Today you restored a broken fellowship. Matthew 5:23-24 says, "Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift." Before I can worship you, you ask that I reconcile with my brother. I asked for guidance and you CLEARLY gave it. The words "thank you" don't seem to suffice in my attempt to express my gratitude to you. You gave me peace, you gave me courage, you gave me strength, you gave me love. You gave him peace, you gave him forgiveness, you gave him love. We will serve you now as one in the body of Christ... no longer separated by sin or a grudge. Thank you thank you thank you. Use me now Lord more than you've ever used me before.
Jesus, I love you. I love you.
Your incredibly grateful, undeserving daughter,
Zandi
I am overwhelmed with thoughts and feelings... with burdens and desires. I'm sitting here in my room thinking about you and how you've been working in my life. I'm overwhelmed. You consistently amaze me.
Lord you are AWESOME. These past few days and weeks have been such an experience. You are evident in my life. I see you in the people around me, in the places I go, and in the daily activities I experience. You are here. I wish I could begin to describe you in words... but as I search for the words, I'm left speechless. I have so many things to say that it overwhelms me and I can't seem to put it down in mere words, but i'll try anyway.. God you are:
Faithful
Perfect
Sovereign
Love
Forgiving
Merciful
Gracious
More than enough
Today I woke up at 6 am to drive back to San Diego from Glendale. On the way I prayed that you would bless today and dedicated it to you. You certainly did more than bless me. I brought Thomas and Jeremy to church. I did not know what you were going to do in their hearts today. It was more than I expected. Today they received you into their hearts. I praise you for that. My brothers will be in heaven with us one day.
Today you restored a broken fellowship. Matthew 5:23-24 says, "Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift." Before I can worship you, you ask that I reconcile with my brother. I asked for guidance and you CLEARLY gave it. The words "thank you" don't seem to suffice in my attempt to express my gratitude to you. You gave me peace, you gave me courage, you gave me strength, you gave me love. You gave him peace, you gave him forgiveness, you gave him love. We will serve you now as one in the body of Christ... no longer separated by sin or a grudge. Thank you thank you thank you. Use me now Lord more than you've ever used me before.
Jesus, I love you. I love you.
Your incredibly grateful, undeserving daughter,
Zandi
Friday, March 05, 2004
Good times with EmBeeZiuM... and Ray and Jerome!
-late night laundry
-feet/pillow fight
-anger!
-Guys? Roomies? Spartans forever?
-love... and forgiveness
-muzack
-MARK MEJIA!! JAKE!!
-rubber ducky PJs and huge Warriors sweatshirt
-late night SavOn's and Kinko's
-hyperactive cheerleaders
-oh hello Sun!!!
-AAAAHHHH! Turn the ugly alarm off!
-Oh hello phone!! Oh hello vibrating phone!
-10 more minutes Mom!
*tear*... I love EmBeeZium! And Ray and Jerome too... we love Jesus!!
-feet/pillow fight
-anger!
-Guys? Roomies? Spartans forever?
-love... and forgiveness
-muzack
-MARK MEJIA!! JAKE!!
-rubber ducky PJs and huge Warriors sweatshirt
-late night SavOn's and Kinko's
-hyperactive cheerleaders
-oh hello Sun!!!
-AAAAHHHH! Turn the ugly alarm off!
-Oh hello phone!! Oh hello vibrating phone!
-10 more minutes Mom!
*tear*... I love EmBeeZium! And Ray and Jerome too... we love Jesus!!
Saturday, February 28, 2004
The Passion of the Christ
Heavenly Father,
Today, or last night rather, 40 people came out with the TGIF Bible study to watch The Passion of the Christ! WOW. You are awesome. I pray that you use that movie to invoke thought and to spark a desire in our hearts to know you more. Use me Lord.. use me to further your kingdom.
But most of all, this morning, I ask that you would make your PASSION real to me. Help me to understand what that means to my life.. to my faith.
Thank you for letting me be a part of this. Thank you for choosing me to serve you. Thank you for your many blessings. Thank you for the tests and trials that build my faith in you. Thank you for my brothers Miguel and Mark who encourage me and challenge me... Thank you for Bien, my sister.
I love you more and more each day. I pray that never stops growing.
Today, or last night rather, 40 people came out with the TGIF Bible study to watch The Passion of the Christ! WOW. You are awesome. I pray that you use that movie to invoke thought and to spark a desire in our hearts to know you more. Use me Lord.. use me to further your kingdom.
But most of all, this morning, I ask that you would make your PASSION real to me. Help me to understand what that means to my life.. to my faith.
Thank you for letting me be a part of this. Thank you for choosing me to serve you. Thank you for your many blessings. Thank you for the tests and trials that build my faith in you. Thank you for my brothers Miguel and Mark who encourage me and challenge me... Thank you for Bien, my sister.
I love you more and more each day. I pray that never stops growing.
Thursday, February 26, 2004
Bah-tons Baby!!
Oh Lord,
You never cease to amaze me. You bless every minute of my day with more joy that only comes from you.
Today, I went to lunch with Ginang Nacu, Mark, Jon and Jade.. that was a pleasant and unexpected event for today. I had a lot of fun and laughed a lot.
I talked to Laura in class... We were talking about dreams and sleep. I laughed a lot.
I saw Laura and Rachel on the shuttle... Rachel's coming to see the Passion. I praise You and thank You for every single person You add to the list. On the way back home, we were talking and laughing. It was great.
Then Mark, Miguel and Bien came over again to practice the Bridge Illustration. I love those people. Thank you for their lives. They make me laugh, they encourage me, they inspire me, and they are all around beautiful people. I enjoy their company and the laughter... and all the wonderful things we share in common... ESPECIALLY YOU!
Then they left... and I called Ivy to help me prepare for my RA interview. She's a wonderful person and really helpful. But more than that, I've found an awesome friend in her. Thank you God. We shared a lot of similar experiences with each other.. and even shed some tears together. I didn't expect to be so blessed.
Jesus... you are so wonderful... I attribute all my joy and all my blessings to You. You are the source of everything good in my life. You are the source of life.
I love You.
You never cease to amaze me. You bless every minute of my day with more joy that only comes from you.
Today, I went to lunch with Ginang Nacu, Mark, Jon and Jade.. that was a pleasant and unexpected event for today. I had a lot of fun and laughed a lot.
I talked to Laura in class... We were talking about dreams and sleep. I laughed a lot.
I saw Laura and Rachel on the shuttle... Rachel's coming to see the Passion. I praise You and thank You for every single person You add to the list. On the way back home, we were talking and laughing. It was great.
Then Mark, Miguel and Bien came over again to practice the Bridge Illustration. I love those people. Thank you for their lives. They make me laugh, they encourage me, they inspire me, and they are all around beautiful people. I enjoy their company and the laughter... and all the wonderful things we share in common... ESPECIALLY YOU!
Then they left... and I called Ivy to help me prepare for my RA interview. She's a wonderful person and really helpful. But more than that, I've found an awesome friend in her. Thank you God. We shared a lot of similar experiences with each other.. and even shed some tears together. I didn't expect to be so blessed.
Jesus... you are so wonderful... I attribute all my joy and all my blessings to You. You are the source of everything good in my life. You are the source of life.
I love You.
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Matthew's Gospel
This morning I read about the death and resurrection of Jesus in the book of Matthew. As I was praying about it, I realized that I had read it so many times. I realized that it's so easy for someone to have faith and believe in it if they've been taught it so many times. It becomes something regular. So today, I asked God to make Jesus' story REAL to me... make it REAL to my life. I asked him to show me and teach me what Christ's death meant to ME.
I also learned something new today while reading. On the road to Golgotha where he was crucified, Jesus was offered wine with Gall mixed in it. I wondered... what's Gall? I read in the footnote that Gall deadens the pain. People were offering a way out of his suffering... trying to ease his pain. But Jesus refused it. He wanted to suffer and pay the FULL price of our sins. He wanted to fulfill his mission completely... wholeheartedly. He never backed down. He could've come down from the cross. He could've told them to stop beating him and mocking him. He could've asked God to send down a legion of angels to rescue him-- but he didn't. He went all the way... for ME.
I thank you Jesus for suffering for me. I never want to take for granted what you did for me.
I also learned something new today while reading. On the road to Golgotha where he was crucified, Jesus was offered wine with Gall mixed in it. I wondered... what's Gall? I read in the footnote that Gall deadens the pain. People were offering a way out of his suffering... trying to ease his pain. But Jesus refused it. He wanted to suffer and pay the FULL price of our sins. He wanted to fulfill his mission completely... wholeheartedly. He never backed down. He could've come down from the cross. He could've told them to stop beating him and mocking him. He could've asked God to send down a legion of angels to rescue him-- but he didn't. He went all the way... for ME.
I thank you Jesus for suffering for me. I never want to take for granted what you did for me.
Sigh... I love you, Lord.
God,
You are amazing. You are awesome. You are beautiful. Your love is... Indescribable.
So much is happening. You're moving in me. I can't even put into words what I'm experiencing.
You've blessed me so much already. You've changed my perspective and my heart. You've transformed my mind. You've given me so much strength.
Yesterday, the meeting with Miguel, Bien, and Mark was so blessed. You were there in our midst. You guided us. You overwhelmed me with your presence. You are going to do something amazing in us and through this Bible study. I know it. You are going to touch so many people with this movie. I have faith.
Today, I talked with Ian for the first time since last Wednesday. It was very good to hear from him and hear all the great things that You're doing in his life. Of course, I had to share what You were doing in mine.. and I couldn't stop talking. I'm so thankful for what you're doing in our lives. I'm thankful that you've allowed us to remain friends. I have faith that you have an AWESOME plan for each of us... something beyond anything we could ever imagine.
I love You. I give my life and my heart to You. I surrender it all to You. I worship You.
You are amazing. You are awesome. You are beautiful. Your love is... Indescribable.
So much is happening. You're moving in me. I can't even put into words what I'm experiencing.
You've blessed me so much already. You've changed my perspective and my heart. You've transformed my mind. You've given me so much strength.
Yesterday, the meeting with Miguel, Bien, and Mark was so blessed. You were there in our midst. You guided us. You overwhelmed me with your presence. You are going to do something amazing in us and through this Bible study. I know it. You are going to touch so many people with this movie. I have faith.
Today, I talked with Ian for the first time since last Wednesday. It was very good to hear from him and hear all the great things that You're doing in his life. Of course, I had to share what You were doing in mine.. and I couldn't stop talking. I'm so thankful for what you're doing in our lives. I'm thankful that you've allowed us to remain friends. I have faith that you have an AWESOME plan for each of us... something beyond anything we could ever imagine.
I love You. I give my life and my heart to You. I surrender it all to You. I worship You.
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
Monday, February 23, 2004
Thank you God! It wasn't that bad!!
I just finished my test, and although I didn't do as well as I could've or as well as I did last time, I was very surprised to know how much I did retain this morning! All the glory and praise go to JESUS CHRIST! He guided me through it all the way.
I love you Lord!
I love you Lord!
Today's Theme Song: Goodbye To You by - Michelle Branch
I never really listened to the lyrics of this song. This is my theme song today.
Goodbye To You Lyrics - Michelle Branch:
"Of all the things I've believed in,
I just want to get it over with,
tears form behind my eyes,
but I do not cry,
counting the days that pass me by.
I've been searchin' deep down in my soul;
words that I'm hearin' are starting to get old,
it feels like I'm starting all over again,
The last three years were just pretend,
and I said...
Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto.
I still get lost in your eyes,
and it seems that I can't live a day without you,
closing my eyes,
and you chase my thoughts away,
to a place where I am blinded by the light,
but it's not right.
Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold on to.
Ooh whoa....
and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time,
I want what's yours and I want what's mine,
I want you,
but I'm not giving in this time.
Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto
Goodbye to you, (goodbye to you)
goodbye to everything I thought I knew, (goodbye to you)
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto,
(the one thing that i tried to hold onto)
the one thing that I tried to hold onto.
(the one thing that i tried to hold onto)
Oh, oh whoa, oh, oh (one thing that i tried to hold onto)
and when the stars fall I will lie awake,
you're my shooting star
Goodbye To You Lyrics - Michelle Branch:
"Of all the things I've believed in,
I just want to get it over with,
tears form behind my eyes,
but I do not cry,
counting the days that pass me by.
I've been searchin' deep down in my soul;
words that I'm hearin' are starting to get old,
it feels like I'm starting all over again,
The last three years were just pretend,
and I said...
Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto.
I still get lost in your eyes,
and it seems that I can't live a day without you,
closing my eyes,
and you chase my thoughts away,
to a place where I am blinded by the light,
but it's not right.
Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold on to.
Ooh whoa....
and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time,
I want what's yours and I want what's mine,
I want you,
but I'm not giving in this time.
Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto
Goodbye to you, (goodbye to you)
goodbye to everything I thought I knew, (goodbye to you)
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto,
(the one thing that i tried to hold onto)
the one thing that I tried to hold onto.
(the one thing that i tried to hold onto)
Oh, oh whoa, oh, oh (one thing that i tried to hold onto)
and when the stars fall I will lie awake,
you're my shooting star
6 hours to go! Pray!
Dear Jesus,
I've got 6 six hours to study for my neurobiology midterm. Please give me the wisdom to understand and retain the knowledge i'm about to study. Help me to memorize as best I can and to reproduce it during the test. Thank you for the rest last night.
The Passion is this Friday!! 4 more days to go!
I've got 6 six hours to study for my neurobiology midterm. Please give me the wisdom to understand and retain the knowledge i'm about to study. Help me to memorize as best I can and to reproduce it during the test. Thank you for the rest last night.
The Passion is this Friday!! 4 more days to go!
Sunday, February 22, 2004
God, Help Me!!
Dear God,
I'm struggling so much right now. I don't want to study. I don't like school. I don't want to do homework. I just want to have fun and listen to music and play music and sing and hang out with friends all day long. I need your strength and your discipline right now SOOO badly. I'm really feeling apathetic about school. I don't know if Psychology is what you want me to be doing. I'm really feeling for music. But i'm not sure what to do. Help me Lord and give me discernment and direction.
Help me to open my books and read my notes.. and most of all to comprehend and retain what I review. Help me to have a passion for learning and to be a good and responsible student for You. This is my biggest struggle right now. Lord, help me!
I'm struggling so much right now. I don't want to study. I don't like school. I don't want to do homework. I just want to have fun and listen to music and play music and sing and hang out with friends all day long. I need your strength and your discipline right now SOOO badly. I'm really feeling apathetic about school. I don't know if Psychology is what you want me to be doing. I'm really feeling for music. But i'm not sure what to do. Help me Lord and give me discernment and direction.
Help me to open my books and read my notes.. and most of all to comprehend and retain what I review. Help me to have a passion for learning and to be a good and responsible student for You. This is my biggest struggle right now. Lord, help me!
Job
Job 1:6-12
Job was a man of God. Satan believed that if God took away all his possessions that Job would curse God to his face. But God believed that he was truly "blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil." So God allowed Satan to take everything Job had, including his children, but told Satan not to kill Job.
Even through the suffering of losing all he had in the blink of an eye... Job praised God. He recognized that no matter what trials or suffering he went through, he should praise God. That is really admirable. And that's why God had so much faith in his servant Job.
Dear Jesus,
Today I want to praise you for any suffering I'm going through. I want to be like Job who never ceased to praise You, even through the extremely hard times in his life. I know that you have an awesome plan for my life and that my sufferings and trials build my perseverance and faith. Help me Lord to praise you through all circumstances.
I love you.
Job was a man of God. Satan believed that if God took away all his possessions that Job would curse God to his face. But God believed that he was truly "blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil." So God allowed Satan to take everything Job had, including his children, but told Satan not to kill Job.
Even through the suffering of losing all he had in the blink of an eye... Job praised God. He recognized that no matter what trials or suffering he went through, he should praise God. That is really admirable. And that's why God had so much faith in his servant Job.
Dear Jesus,
Today I want to praise you for any suffering I'm going through. I want to be like Job who never ceased to praise You, even through the extremely hard times in his life. I know that you have an awesome plan for my life and that my sufferings and trials build my perseverance and faith. Help me Lord to praise you through all circumstances.
I love you.
I Ain't Yo' Uncle and Whale Rider
Today I watched Arash's show I Ain't Yo' Uncle. It's the characters' of Uncle Tom's Cabin version of the story. Very moving. Very thought-provoking. Very creatively done.
Then after that I watched the movie Whale Rider with my roommate Carina. It was surprisingly good. I've seen it at Blockbuster before, but I didn't know what it was about. The girl in the movie is soo cute and very talented. Good movie.
I missed the Christina Aguilera SNL, but Allan said it wasn't that good. I'm not surprised actually. Most of the SNLs these days are really lame compared to how there were before.
Now I'm watching the VH1 movie on Ike and Tina Turner. Dude.. People who think that beating their wives or children are SICK. It makes me SOOOOO mad.
I'm sleepy now. Going to bed.
Tomorrow I'm going to rehearse with Monday Sessions and then I'm going to the Rock. Does anyone wanna come?
Then after that I watched the movie Whale Rider with my roommate Carina. It was surprisingly good. I've seen it at Blockbuster before, but I didn't know what it was about. The girl in the movie is soo cute and very talented. Good movie.
I missed the Christina Aguilera SNL, but Allan said it wasn't that good. I'm not surprised actually. Most of the SNLs these days are really lame compared to how there were before.
Now I'm watching the VH1 movie on Ike and Tina Turner. Dude.. People who think that beating their wives or children are SICK. It makes me SOOOOO mad.
I'm sleepy now. Going to bed.
Tomorrow I'm going to rehearse with Monday Sessions and then I'm going to the Rock. Does anyone wanna come?
Saturday, February 21, 2004
Today's Theme Song: Do They See Jesus in Me? by Joy Williams
Is the face that I see in the mirror the one I want others to see?
Do I show in the way that I walk in my life the love that you've given to me?
My heart's desire is to be like you in all that I do, all I am
Do they see Jesus in me?
Do they recognize your face?
Do I communicate your love and your grace?
Do I reflect who you are in the way I choose to be?
Do they see Jesus, Jesus in me?
Well it's amazing that you'd ever use me, but use me the way you will
Help me to hold out heart of compassion and grace
A heart that your Spirit fills
May I show forgiveness and mercy the same way you've shown it to me
Do they see Jesus in me?
Do they recognize your face?
Do I communicate your love and your grace?
Do I reflect who you are in the way I choose to be?
Do they see Jesus, Jesus in me?
Well I want to show all the world that You are the reason I live and breathe
So You'll be the one that they see when they see me
Oh, do they see Jesus in me?
Do I show in the way that I walk in my life the love that you've given to me?
My heart's desire is to be like you in all that I do, all I am
Do they see Jesus in me?
Do they recognize your face?
Do I communicate your love and your grace?
Do I reflect who you are in the way I choose to be?
Do they see Jesus, Jesus in me?
Well it's amazing that you'd ever use me, but use me the way you will
Help me to hold out heart of compassion and grace
A heart that your Spirit fills
May I show forgiveness and mercy the same way you've shown it to me
Do they see Jesus in me?
Do they recognize your face?
Do I communicate your love and your grace?
Do I reflect who you are in the way I choose to be?
Do they see Jesus, Jesus in me?
Well I want to show all the world that You are the reason I live and breathe
So You'll be the one that they see when they see me
Oh, do they see Jesus in me?
Do They See Jesus in Me?
Acts 2:42-47 describes some very devoted believers in Christ. Soul Journey.org described 4 of the main practices that these believers did.
• Teaching: They focused on the gospel—the telling of Jesus’ life, death, and resurrection. This powerful teaching resulted in disciples who presented a focused, clear message.
• Fellowship: As the believers met at the temple, or in one another’s homes, genuine love and caring was exhibited that had to attract unbelievers. There was a way about them—an identity—that marked the believers.
• Breaking Bread: It’s likely that the meaning of this practice mentioned in Acts 2:42 is the remembrance of the Lord’s Supper. As believers consistently broke bread and took the cup together, their hearts, minds, and wills were brought to the cross for purification and renewed passion.
• Prayer: The believers were following the practice of Jesus. The words poured forth from hearts that were filled with awe at what God was doing in their midst.
These people did this EVERY DAY. I want to be able to do this EVERY DAY so that no one will be able to miss the fact that I believe in Jesus Christ. Through teaching, fellowship, remembering Christ's death through Communion, and prayer, I want others to be able to see Jesus living in me.
Dear Jesus,
You are God. You are holy. You are loving. You are awesome.
I confess to you that I haven't been exemplifying what it means to be a Christian. I'm sorry for hiding you inside my heart and not letting you shine through me. Please forgive me and help me to be the disciple that you called me to be.
Thank you for your Word today and thank you for the example you left for me to follow in Acts 4:42-47. Thank you for a good night's rest last night. I got to sleep almost 12 hours. Thank you for starting my day off with me once again. Thank you for loving me and holding me in your arms last night when I felt alone. Thank you for putting me to sleep when I couldn't go to sleep. Thank you for all the blessings in my life, especially people. Thank you for life itself and the calling you've given me to share Your life with everyone. Thank you for Mel Gibson and his movie. I'm so excited.
I pray Lord that you would help me to be a good disciple, a good servant. Help me to boldly share Your story with people. Help me to fellowship and love others with Your amazing love. I pray that I will always remember that you suffered extreme pain and died on the cross to save me from my sins and to give me eternal life in Heaven. I pray that you give me consistency in spending time with you EVERY DAY. I pray that I would start the day off with you every day. I pray also for the Passion movie. I pray that it will be used as a strong evangelistic tool and that through this movie, millions of people will come to know what you did for us all. I also pray for my friends. For those who know you already as their personal Savior, I pray that you would strengthen their faith and love for You. Help them to grow and to share You with everyone they know. I pray for those of my friends who don't know you as their personal Lord and Savior. Help me to reach out to them by bringing them to church, taking them to see the Passion, and even just talk to them about You. I pray for Ian, that you would strenghten his faith and that you would use him mightily for Your glory. I also pray for my family. I pray that you would make them all strong women of faith and that you would use them to further Your Kingdom.
I love you Jesus.
• Teaching: They focused on the gospel—the telling of Jesus’ life, death, and resurrection. This powerful teaching resulted in disciples who presented a focused, clear message.
• Fellowship: As the believers met at the temple, or in one another’s homes, genuine love and caring was exhibited that had to attract unbelievers. There was a way about them—an identity—that marked the believers.
• Breaking Bread: It’s likely that the meaning of this practice mentioned in Acts 2:42 is the remembrance of the Lord’s Supper. As believers consistently broke bread and took the cup together, their hearts, minds, and wills were brought to the cross for purification and renewed passion.
• Prayer: The believers were following the practice of Jesus. The words poured forth from hearts that were filled with awe at what God was doing in their midst.
These people did this EVERY DAY. I want to be able to do this EVERY DAY so that no one will be able to miss the fact that I believe in Jesus Christ. Through teaching, fellowship, remembering Christ's death through Communion, and prayer, I want others to be able to see Jesus living in me.
Dear Jesus,
You are God. You are holy. You are loving. You are awesome.
I confess to you that I haven't been exemplifying what it means to be a Christian. I'm sorry for hiding you inside my heart and not letting you shine through me. Please forgive me and help me to be the disciple that you called me to be.
Thank you for your Word today and thank you for the example you left for me to follow in Acts 4:42-47. Thank you for a good night's rest last night. I got to sleep almost 12 hours. Thank you for starting my day off with me once again. Thank you for loving me and holding me in your arms last night when I felt alone. Thank you for putting me to sleep when I couldn't go to sleep. Thank you for all the blessings in my life, especially people. Thank you for life itself and the calling you've given me to share Your life with everyone. Thank you for Mel Gibson and his movie. I'm so excited.
I pray Lord that you would help me to be a good disciple, a good servant. Help me to boldly share Your story with people. Help me to fellowship and love others with Your amazing love. I pray that I will always remember that you suffered extreme pain and died on the cross to save me from my sins and to give me eternal life in Heaven. I pray that you give me consistency in spending time with you EVERY DAY. I pray that I would start the day off with you every day. I pray also for the Passion movie. I pray that it will be used as a strong evangelistic tool and that through this movie, millions of people will come to know what you did for us all. I also pray for my friends. For those who know you already as their personal Savior, I pray that you would strengthen their faith and love for You. Help them to grow and to share You with everyone they know. I pray for those of my friends who don't know you as their personal Lord and Savior. Help me to reach out to them by bringing them to church, taking them to see the Passion, and even just talk to them about You. I pray for Ian, that you would strenghten his faith and that you would use him mightily for Your glory. I also pray for my family. I pray that you would make them all strong women of faith and that you would use them to further Your Kingdom.
I love you Jesus.
PCC begins...
Dear Jesus,
Today was a beautiful blessing. After the mmw quiz, Mark, Ferry and I, walked to the saac lounge to hang out and check out if the roles for pcc had been posted up. Then I saw Laura and she helped me with my hw a WHOLE bunch. Then the roles were posted and I got a part named Mandi Rigma. Oh and I saw ReyRey too... I miss him. We need to catch up. I got to invite him to see the Passion with us. Anyway, Jason came in with his guitar, and I started singing. I was having so much fun. Then Jalyn came and later Jason, her, and I ate dinner together. Thank you for the great eating buddies today. I also got to talk to Abe about stuff and I haven't talked to him in a while. OH and I sang three part harmony with Joe and Abe. It was beautiful!!!
Then after that we went to the meeting at the Cross Cultural Center. That was waaaaaaaaaaaay fun. We played a game, laughed a lot watching the old PCC videos, and shared stories of our experiences with the new people. It made me tear a bit when I thought of Pa. Hi Pa! Miss you!!
Then afterwards, I went to Hed's place (aka Bien's and Dianne's place) and we had a jam session. Hed had a drum set, Jason had his guitar... Teddy was there playing drums too.. I sang a bit and Mark did too. Then after people started leaving... me, Mark, and Miguel started messing around with the guitar and making up songs about each other. That was fun.
So overall I had a beautiful, fun day with great people. You have totally blessed me today and surrounded me with loving friends. Thank you.
As a walked to my apt. alone, though, the loneliness tried to creep back in. This is the hardest part of my day now. No Ian to talk to on the phone at night and sing Tango Mango to me. It's just you and me Jesus. Just the two of us from now on. I'll sing to you this time...
I sing a simple song of love
To my Savior, to my Jesus
I'm grateful for the things you've done
My loving Savior, oh precious Jesus
My heart is glad that you've called me your own
There's no place I'd rather be
Than in your arms of love
In your arms of love
Holding me still
Holding me near
In your arms of love
Today was a beautiful blessing. After the mmw quiz, Mark, Ferry and I, walked to the saac lounge to hang out and check out if the roles for pcc had been posted up. Then I saw Laura and she helped me with my hw a WHOLE bunch. Then the roles were posted and I got a part named Mandi Rigma. Oh and I saw ReyRey too... I miss him. We need to catch up. I got to invite him to see the Passion with us. Anyway, Jason came in with his guitar, and I started singing. I was having so much fun. Then Jalyn came and later Jason, her, and I ate dinner together. Thank you for the great eating buddies today. I also got to talk to Abe about stuff and I haven't talked to him in a while. OH and I sang three part harmony with Joe and Abe. It was beautiful!!!
Then after that we went to the meeting at the Cross Cultural Center. That was waaaaaaaaaaaay fun. We played a game, laughed a lot watching the old PCC videos, and shared stories of our experiences with the new people. It made me tear a bit when I thought of Pa. Hi Pa! Miss you!!
Then afterwards, I went to Hed's place (aka Bien's and Dianne's place) and we had a jam session. Hed had a drum set, Jason had his guitar... Teddy was there playing drums too.. I sang a bit and Mark did too. Then after people started leaving... me, Mark, and Miguel started messing around with the guitar and making up songs about each other. That was fun.
So overall I had a beautiful, fun day with great people. You have totally blessed me today and surrounded me with loving friends. Thank you.
As a walked to my apt. alone, though, the loneliness tried to creep back in. This is the hardest part of my day now. No Ian to talk to on the phone at night and sing Tango Mango to me. It's just you and me Jesus. Just the two of us from now on. I'll sing to you this time...
I sing a simple song of love
To my Savior, to my Jesus
I'm grateful for the things you've done
My loving Savior, oh precious Jesus
My heart is glad that you've called me your own
There's no place I'd rather be
Than in your arms of love
In your arms of love
Holding me still
Holding me near
In your arms of love
Friday, February 20, 2004
Today's Theme Song: Worth It All by Alltogether Separate
It will be worth it all someday
It will be worth it
to go the straight and narrow way
When we finally see His face
And feel His warm embrace
It will be worth it all that day
These present troubles don't compare
To all the glory our God,
He has prepared
'cause when we finally see His face
And feel His strong embrace
It will be worth it all that day
And I can see the angels
as they celebrate and call your name
And I can hear the Father,
with a tear in His eye
As He says well done
my good and faithful servant
Well done
It will be worth it all
It will be worth it all
It will be worth it all that day
It will be worth it
to go the straight and narrow way
When we finally see His face
And feel His warm embrace
It will be worth it all that day
These present troubles don't compare
To all the glory our God,
He has prepared
'cause when we finally see His face
And feel His strong embrace
It will be worth it all that day
And I can see the angels
as they celebrate and call your name
And I can hear the Father,
with a tear in His eye
As He says well done
my good and faithful servant
Well done
It will be worth it all
It will be worth it all
It will be worth it all that day
I Want Faith Like This
Bible Gateway : MARK 2:1-12;:
Jesus Heals a Paralytic
1A few days later, when Jesus again entered Capernaum, the people heard that he had come home. 2So many gathered that there was no room left, not even outside the door, and he preached the word to them. 3Some men came, bringing to him a paralytic, carried by four of them. 4Since they could not get him to Jesus because of the crowd, they made an opening in the roof above Jesus and, after digging through it, lowered the mat the paralyzed man was lying on. 5When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, 'Son, your sins are forgiven.' "
"...He said to the paralytic, 11 'I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home.' 12He got up, took his mat and walked out in full view of them all. This amazed everyone and they praised God, saying, 'We have never seen anything like this!' "
Dang... I want faith like this. The place was packed and the guys bringing the paralytic man couldn't get in. But they had SOOO much faith in Jesus and his healing power, that they knew they HAD to get in the building. They believed it so strongly that they stopped at nothing to get in. They dug a HOLE through the ROOF to lower the man down to see Jesus!!! CAHRAYZEEEEE! Then when Jesus saw their faith in him, he not only healed his body... he forgave his sins.
This just shows me how Jesus can bless me if I have faith enough to go to the extreme for him. I think i'm digging my hole through the roof by letting go of a relationship and trusting that Jesus will heal my heart and forgive me of my sins. It's a hard thing to do, but I know that the blessings will exceed the amount of heartache I'm going through.
I know God can do amazing things through me if I completely trust him in everything, including my school work, my career plans, my friendships, my relationships.. my whole future. It's hard when you don't have anyone sitting next to you in the car... it's hard when you're doing your hw all alone... and its hard when you have to sit in your room eating your food by yourself. But it's all going to be worth it. I'm going to be able to talk to Jesus in all those times of loneliness.
I'm building faith muscles so I can have faith to dig my hole through the roof to see Jesus. I want everyone to be like... whoa that's crazy what she did... she really trusts Jesus.
Today, I have faith that I'm going to get through this day. I have faith I'm going to do well on this reading quiz in MMW and I'm going to finish my CogSci hw. I know I could be doing it now... but that's how much faith I have!! Spending time with God first thing in the morning is the most important thing. It can affect your whole day. So i'm investing this time in God. Hopefully he'll bless me for it!
Dear Jesus,
Thank you for this day. Thank you for a good morning and a good night's rest. Thank you for starting the day off with me. Thank you for a brand new start. Thank you for your awesome Word that you've provided me with for guidance.
God thank you for being my God... my Friend... my Father... my Everything. You are so awesome. Help me to love you more every day and grow closer to you by knowing you through your Word.
I confess to you that I haven't been having too much faith in You. I haven't been trusting that you'll get me through this or trusting that you've put me in this position for a specific reason. Forgive me and help me to have an amazing faith in you.
Thank you for your unconditional love for me. Thank you for dying on the cross for me. Thank you for making the ultimate sacrifice of your own life... just for me. Thank you for your love that fills me up like no other.
Thank you for all my wonderful friends who are here in San Diego encouraging me and comforting me. They also inspire me to have more faith in You. Thank you for Ian too who had the courage to let go of the relationship too so that we could live lives that honor You.
I pray for discipline in my school work. I procrastinate a lot and I can't keep focused. But now I dedicate all my work to you and I pray that I will be reminded that I'm not studying or working hard for anyone but YOU. I pray for strength to get through this day.
I pray for Ian that he would know you more and trust in You more regarding his career plans and even his relationships in the future.
Thank you for a new day. I love you Jesus.
Jesus Heals a Paralytic
1A few days later, when Jesus again entered Capernaum, the people heard that he had come home. 2So many gathered that there was no room left, not even outside the door, and he preached the word to them. 3Some men came, bringing to him a paralytic, carried by four of them. 4Since they could not get him to Jesus because of the crowd, they made an opening in the roof above Jesus and, after digging through it, lowered the mat the paralyzed man was lying on. 5When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralytic, 'Son, your sins are forgiven.' "
"...He said to the paralytic, 11 'I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home.' 12He got up, took his mat and walked out in full view of them all. This amazed everyone and they praised God, saying, 'We have never seen anything like this!' "
Dang... I want faith like this. The place was packed and the guys bringing the paralytic man couldn't get in. But they had SOOO much faith in Jesus and his healing power, that they knew they HAD to get in the building. They believed it so strongly that they stopped at nothing to get in. They dug a HOLE through the ROOF to lower the man down to see Jesus!!! CAHRAYZEEEEE! Then when Jesus saw their faith in him, he not only healed his body... he forgave his sins.
This just shows me how Jesus can bless me if I have faith enough to go to the extreme for him. I think i'm digging my hole through the roof by letting go of a relationship and trusting that Jesus will heal my heart and forgive me of my sins. It's a hard thing to do, but I know that the blessings will exceed the amount of heartache I'm going through.
I know God can do amazing things through me if I completely trust him in everything, including my school work, my career plans, my friendships, my relationships.. my whole future. It's hard when you don't have anyone sitting next to you in the car... it's hard when you're doing your hw all alone... and its hard when you have to sit in your room eating your food by yourself. But it's all going to be worth it. I'm going to be able to talk to Jesus in all those times of loneliness.
I'm building faith muscles so I can have faith to dig my hole through the roof to see Jesus. I want everyone to be like... whoa that's crazy what she did... she really trusts Jesus.
Today, I have faith that I'm going to get through this day. I have faith I'm going to do well on this reading quiz in MMW and I'm going to finish my CogSci hw. I know I could be doing it now... but that's how much faith I have!! Spending time with God first thing in the morning is the most important thing. It can affect your whole day. So i'm investing this time in God. Hopefully he'll bless me for it!
Dear Jesus,
Thank you for this day. Thank you for a good morning and a good night's rest. Thank you for starting the day off with me. Thank you for a brand new start. Thank you for your awesome Word that you've provided me with for guidance.
God thank you for being my God... my Friend... my Father... my Everything. You are so awesome. Help me to love you more every day and grow closer to you by knowing you through your Word.
I confess to you that I haven't been having too much faith in You. I haven't been trusting that you'll get me through this or trusting that you've put me in this position for a specific reason. Forgive me and help me to have an amazing faith in you.
Thank you for your unconditional love for me. Thank you for dying on the cross for me. Thank you for making the ultimate sacrifice of your own life... just for me. Thank you for your love that fills me up like no other.
Thank you for all my wonderful friends who are here in San Diego encouraging me and comforting me. They also inspire me to have more faith in You. Thank you for Ian too who had the courage to let go of the relationship too so that we could live lives that honor You.
I pray for discipline in my school work. I procrastinate a lot and I can't keep focused. But now I dedicate all my work to you and I pray that I will be reminded that I'm not studying or working hard for anyone but YOU. I pray for strength to get through this day.
I pray for Ian that he would know you more and trust in You more regarding his career plans and even his relationships in the future.
Thank you for a new day. I love you Jesus.
"'Instant character' can be manufactured in the studio, but the seasoning that sets a person apart comes only with time, effort, and experience in life. Christian character is built through trusting God in trials one day at a time. There is no short-cut. But as the process goes on, you'll be seasoned as others are helped and strengthened through you." --Dave McCasland
Monday, February 16, 2004
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