it's been a long time

it's been a long time
we shouldn'ta left you, left you
without a dope beat to step to, step to, step to




wow. it's been so long.

i just finished performing in the opening night of my first production here at UCSD. It was a Musical Theatre Cabaret. At the second show tonight, some of the Theatre Grad students came to watch and I was SOOO freakin nervous. They came up to me afterwards and complimented me. OMG. OMG. I was like... OMG! It was awesome.

I was happy that Melanie Horn and Gabster came to see me tonight. Sal, Mel, and Nowie saw me yesterday. My girls. It was really important to have them come and watch me... especially since i've been working so hard on this show for the past month or so. You don't know how much it means to you that someone comes to watch you until you see them there. It means a whole lot. It gives you so much energy during the show knowing that someone is watching you. Mom and the girls are coming tomorrow. YAY!

I want to perform the rest of my life. I wanna be a better dancer, a better actor, and a better singer. Ooh which reminds me!! I got into the Starlight Theatre production of Miss Saigon! It's only an ensemble part but it's PAID!!! Hey hey hey! It's so exciting. How awesome is it that I'm gonna be getting paid to be doing something I absolutely LOVE! That's so great. I can't wait.


So right now... I'm in a weird kind of mood. I should be asleep but I've got a few things on my mind. I'm a little upset and a lot exhausted. All I gotta say is that I'm really thankful for the women in my life right now. Sisters are important. Female relationships are so important. I've been relying way too much on my relationships with boys. THAT IS ALL.


time to sleep. muah.