I hate school...

and studying... and finals...

today is my Psyc 163 final. i suck at memorizing. i suck at studying. boo.

i'm stalling... delaying, if you will. i should be studying right now. but i'm not. what a bad student.

SOMEONE HELP ME!!!

im so hungry i'm shaking

im at miramar college in the computer lab waiting for my stats teacher to get in... im so hungry i'm shaking.

summer school sucks. well not really. i really like my ucsd classes. thac 1 (intro to acting is WONDERFUL) and psyc 163 (abnormal psych) is cool cuz the prof is pretty funny. as for stats here at miramar... the drive sucks... the hours suck... and the hw sucks... i hate it!

boo. ok that's enough complaining. thank you Lord for the privelege to go to school. yay!

tin tin is in town visiting... i've been her guardian for the past few days... i felt bad that she had to go to class with me so i dropped her off with kuya marker today. hopefully she has way more fun than i'll have tonight. on tuesday she hung out with kuya ian... they went to chuck and cheese (as my lola would call it). tomorrow we're going to legoland... what a spoiled child! hahah jk. but she is very much blessed. i just wish she had a sister closer in age to her. like ni had toe and i had cole...


anyway... there's a lot on my mind. i've been going through a hard and lonely time lately. too much to explain. just pray for me if you're reading this. i need to find my everything in Jesus.

sim - its so weird that u texted when i was singing eye steal bee leave. hope your car is doing ok. magals.

im still hungry.. im still shaking... all i've had to eat today is a lunchable.. which used to be so filling! and now i only have cinnamon graham goldfishies... and milanos... sounds good... but not substantial enough to fill me up... it'll hold me over til 9 though. ugh... this 3 hours of stats is NOT fun! please someone make it stop!!

ok i'm whining again. i could be doing my hw right now since i'm so behind... but i'm not. i have two midterms on tuesday and i haven't started studying for either yet. what a slacker. i want to be an actress!!! hahah...

im so random... poverty of content.. that's what this is. haha. im a nerdy psych major.

give me food!

my girl nowie..  

david is cute in pink... i love pink! 

i love this girl 

again again.. without the makeup on the guys 

family... embeezium 

chillin on the pcc couch 

cute pictures... oh nowie... where are you?! 

Decision 2004: Where I'm living

So if you looked down below, you saw that I have recently been looking for a place to stay this summer...

I would like to tell everyone who has ever doubted that God answers prayers or that God provides fully... THAT HE DOES!

Just as I was about to take matters into my own hands, God told me to call up Nowie and ask her about her place. She said that her place in Mira Mesa was free until the end of June when the lease was up. Then her, Ferry, and Sheryl were going to move into a place in La Jolla in the beginning of July. SOOOO... Nowie said that I could move into her room for the low low cost of just the utilities and then take her spot at the condo in La Jolla as soon as they move into there... WOW! Praise the Lord. He really provided.

Praise you Jesus.. Thank you.

1 down, 2 to go... (finals that is)

Today was the last day of LIHL 112 -- Heritage Tagalog. I took my final which was not that difficult. Ginang Nacu brought us some pan de sal and butter... and some oj for breakfast! She's sooooo freakin awesome! Here's a picture of my class and the 11 am class at the Song Festival this year. 

16 more days!!

and then i'm not a teenager anymore!!! AAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!

Chocolate Heaven

THANK YOU KUYA MARKER!!! Ivy and I would like to say a BIG thank you to Mark Mora for being the best kuya of the year.

June 7, 2004: Finals week -- 3 AM in the ERC Computer Lab

MiZaRk112: mmm corndogs!
DjZee624: mmm i want one! we could really use some over here.
M: ok i'll bring some over
D: yay!
M: crapp that sounded like a serious yay
D: what are you talking about... it was
M: lol i knoe. that's what i said crapp
D: ok so just knock on the door when you get here and we'll open it for you. the door gets locked after 10.
M: lol no wayy
D: what?! that's messed up! toying with me, playing with my emotions and hunger!
M: are you seriously hungry?
D: are you seriously asking?
M: I used the root word serious
D: ...yes
M: Ivy too?
D: yeah she is
M: is there a microwave there?
D: no not here
M: do you guys like chocolate?


AND THE REST IS HISTORY!!

THANKS AGAIN!!! YOU'RE AWESOME!!  

KPDC Girls

i found this picture on ivy's imagestation! yay! go kpdc girls! (kp dance crew -- pcc 2004) 

Ivy and Me in the ERC Computer Lab

i'm sitting in the computer lab in erc... late night... trying to study for my tagalog final. but all i can do is distract myself with my weblog and uploading pictures!! ivy is sitting right next to me working so hard... why can't i do the same?! this picture is from the kp semi formal! for more pics.. go to www.imagestation.com/members/djzee624 

Daniel Galang -- one who deserves RESPECT

daniel is one of my closest friends... today he was totally there for me when i need someone to talk to.. and he totally understood everything i was going through. i love this guy so much! 

Gwen

like my new jacket? her name is Gwen. The other day at church Tobin said that I had a Gwen Stefani look going... YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
 

miss you 

Summer's coming

Wow.. I haven't posted in a while.

So the end of the year is coming up fast.

Things on my plate:

Finding a place to live from June 12th to August 7th.
Finding a job for the summer.
Studying for finals this week.
Staying focused on and obedient to God.

So right now my options for housing this summer are:

1. Costa Verde Apts (South Village) w/ Debra (taking Ishani's spot)

Cons:
a. I don't know the people. I found them through the UCSD Off Campus Housing website.
b. They aren't Christian.
c. They are all seniors.

Pros:
a. The location is close to EVERYTHING! School, Albertsons, Blockbuster, the Post Office, my friends who live in Costa Verde too, the pool, the mall... EVERYTHING!
b. The room is VERY VERY spacious. I get to use her full size bed, her desk, and half of her closet space.
c. Parking is easy. It's right off the street.
d. There is an elevator and the room is the FIRST room next to it. Moving my stuff won't be a pain in the butt.
e. The price is pretty good... one of the lowest. Only $341 for rent about $40 for utilities.
f. There is a washer and dryer in the unit.

2. The Venetian w/ Jill, Rachel, and Kathy. (taking Laura's spot)

Cons:
a. The room is small.
b. There are a heck of a lot of stairs to go up.
c. Parking is a little harder.
d. My roommates aren't active Christians.
e. It's a little more expensive -- $350 + 45 for utilities... that's almost $400.
f. Laura isn't leaving til a week after I need the place.
g. The kitchen is pretty small too.

Pros:
a. I know the girls... They're from KP.
b. The place is right next to the pool and the gym.
c. There is a washer and dryer in the unit.
d. It's pretty close to VONS and a whole bunch of other things.
e. It's just as close to school as Costa Verde.

3. Costa Verde or a Condo in La Jolla w/ Ferry and Sheryl (taking Nowie's spot)

Cons:

a. They're not moving in til mid July.
b. Not sure about the girls' faith.
c. It would be hard to move for the second time during the summer.

Pros:

a. I know and love the girls.
b. It's hecka cheap. Only $300 for rent and some for utilities.
c. Lots of space and storage cuz it'll be unfurnished.
d. I'd get to use Nowie's furniture -- a bed, desk, shelves and other containers.
e. They have to live in La Jolla so wherever they choose to live, it'll be close to school.

4. La Jolla Tennis Club

Pros:
a. Only $300 a month. COOL!
b. Living with April! COOL!
c. Closest out of all places to school and freeway.
d. Very spacious.
e. Not charged for utilities.
f. Talkative fun girls, very chill roommate.
g. Close to the Regents bus to school.
h. Amenities include cable modem, pool, washer/dryer, tennis court.

Cons:
a. Still not sure.. going to check it out RIGHT NOW! Praise the LORD!
b. Old.
c. Maybe too talkative...
d. Not as many amenities as Costa Verde.
e. Gym? I dont think so.. not sure.
f. Not so close to grocery or any friends.
g. Washer and dryer are downstairs in the garage... no like.
h. Lots of stairs.. No elevator.

Ok. Time to pray about things.

Dear Lord,

First and foremost I want to praise you and thank you for who you are to me. I acknowledge that you are sovereign over everything... especially my life. Jesus, there are a lot of decisions to be made for this summer and I pray that you would guide me in making each one. I bring them all to you and trust that you will provide and care for me in the best way possible.

Father forgive me of my sins. I know that I have not been perfect.. and I never will be. I've been procrastinating a lot with my school stuff and haven't been focusing. Lord I love you and I want to be obedient in every aspect of my life.

Right now i want to lift up to you my living situation for this summer. I pray Lord that you would clearly speak to me. Please drown out my own selfish desires and show me what is best for me. I give these decisions up to you and know that you have a purpose and plan for everything.

I also lift up to you everything above that i listed.. my job, finals, being obedient... and all my deepest desires and burdens. Please take them from me. I want my will to conform to yours.

I love you Jesus. You know my heart is to worship you... please help me to show you everyday.

Your child,

Zandi

Happy 30th Anniversary Mom and Dad!

Today would have been my parent's 30th wedding anniversary. However, my dad's in heaven right now with Jesus... so yeah. Mom's here in San Diego with me and we're gonna take her out today. She's staying at the Torrey Pines Hilton down the street. Happy Anniversary.

So anyway, I had such weird dreams last night. I dreamt that i kept spilling things everywhere on people. I'm such a clutz (is that how you spell it?). And also, Toni had a concert, and we spent so much time practicing, but we didn't sing any of the songs that we practiced and the whole show lasted as long as a PCC! ECK.

Moving on.

It's been a while since i've written in here. Life has been SOOOO busy because of PCC, and now that it's over, it's a little better. PSST (Pilipino Students Saving Tagalog) is taking up more of my time now. But after this banquet is done, hopefully my schedule will be freed up.

Today I read Oswald Chamber's My Utmost For His Highest. It really caught my attention when he said, "You did not do anything to achieve your salvation, but you must do something to exhibit it." Salvation is free, yes, but once you receive it, it is your responsibility to share it and make it known to others that you have been saved. You can't just keep your free gift to yourself.

Two good passages related to this:

Philippians 2:14-16

Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life--in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.

1 Timothy 4:12

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.



Jesus,

Today, I pray that your light shines through me and that I work at exhibiting my salvation to others. I pray that people would notice the difference that You have made in my life. Thank you for restoring me and refreshing me with Your Word and Your love.

I lift up to you my mom, who is alone today for her anniversary. Give her comfort Jesus when she feels sad. Help her to rejoice in the fact that Dad is with you. Help her to find joy when she has none. Fill her Lord with your love and wrap your loving arms around her.

God, I lift up to you the burdens in my life as well. I ask for strength when it seems like i have none left. I pray Lord that I may finish off this quarter strong. I also pray that you guide me in matters of the heart. You know Lord what is going on in my life and the choices that have been laid out in front of me. Help me to choose according to your word and your will. All i want to do is do your will.

I love you, Jesus.

In your most precious name I pray. Amen.