update

ok. a lot has happened since i last blogged.

i met someone awesome. he has this amazing ability to make me smile involuntarily. :)

i got a new haircut.

my hair color is different... again.

my family came to visit me two weekends ago.

my sisters and i are experiencing a Spice Girls revival.

all the sisters came home to watch tin play in the bball playoffs. (she did awesome, and we lost our voices cheering and being obnoxious.)

happiness.

Some hot people

Some hot people
Originally uploaded by zmoney.

Another picture from Casino Night. Who's that weird girl smiling on the left? She's not supposed to be in the picture!

Danai and me at Casino Night

Danai and me at Casino Night
Originally uploaded by zmoney.

Danai is the little brother I never had... I'm gonna find him a hot mama to appreciate his smooth moves someday.

me and mr. dance (as carol calls him)

me and mr. dance (as carol calls him)
Originally uploaded by zmoney.

my right wrist is busted... i have to type with my left hand and very little movement with my right. check out a picture that i got from carol's online picture album! this is how i busted my wrist!

oh man... can i just be a professional have-fun-er for the rest of my life?

theatre... ballroom dancing... singing...

that's all i need.

oh and maybe someone to share it with somewhere down the road. that'd be nice.

hooray.


p.s. i got my 2nd scene assignment for my theatre acting 101 class and i have to kiss my partner! whoa whoa whoa! i don't know if i can do that man!

it's official

ladies and gentlemen:

i have officially declared my major to be theatre.

so long psychology. it was fun while it lasted.

thank you.

Zandi

take a deep breath...

i talked to my mom today.

told her i was gonna talk to the theatre dept advisor about switching majors.

that is a BIG deal for me, considering that my biggest fear that was keeping me from majoring in a huge passion of mine was my mom's approval.

i was so inspired today... to tears even.

i think i came to the point where i was like, "i wanna do this. no. i HAVE to do this."

we'll see where this road leads.

sleep

good night.
sleep tight.
i'll try not to think about you tonight.

is there any hope left?

we'll see.

i know it's cheesy but...

Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It’s not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me
Cos I’d already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

Now I’ve tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don’t ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me
Cos I’d already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words

miscellaneous.

actions speak louder than words.

what if we had no more words to tell each other how we felt about each other?

what would you do then?

how would you show me?

love is a verb.

home

back from the retreat.

definitely a lot on my mind.

i'm a little more relaxed, a little more rejuvenated, and a lot more motivated.

found again a newfound Strength. does that make sense?

time to clean up my mess and get my life back together.




discipline.

drunken madness

no not me. i haven't been drinking at all...

but apparently someone else might have been.


i don't understand you
stop messing with my mind
it's done, it's over
i've left it all behind
i won't be swayed, i won't be bent
no matter what you say
you were never anything good to me
so please just stay away

massage heaven.

gosh i haven't had a good massage in FOREVER. my buddy ol pal gave me one today and i returned the favor, but MAN OH MAN...

i feel like a noodle!

i need one of those EVERYDAY!

sign me up.

i think if we all had one at least once or twice a month, we'd be a lot more relaxed.

thanks buddy!

nap d fans

have fun with these... my awesome sister found em for me.

napoleon dynamite soundboards...

http://conversationswithmyself.com/content/nd_board

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/ndsound.php

support

i had no idea i had so much support.

thank you to everyone who gives me love and joy.
i am so blessed with so many wonderful things in life that there's really no time to be wasting time crying.
crying about things is another way of being an ingrate for the great things with which you are so graciously bestowed.


there's so many things to be thankful for!!

love song suicide.

damien rice - the blower's daughter
imogen heap - goodnight and go
the carpenters - you
jann arden - you don't know me
elliott smith - twilight
jane monheit - blame it on my youth
jason mraz - absolutely zero


more to come...

empty kitchen

moved out of my second home.

sad... but simultaneously liberating.

used to keep my stuff there just so i had a reason to come back.

now, there's nothing.

said goodbye to the place that was so familiar.

i'm ready for a new chapter in my life.

hugs

sometimes we take for granted how good it feels to be held.

i could really use a hug from someone who loves me.

i wanna go home.

i miss my dad.

i'm a sad girl right now.

garden state

i just watched garden state by myself.

i like watching movies by myself. it's nice.

anyway, i liked it... but hated it! why do i watch those kinds of movies by myself? it's like love suicide.

oh, love... such a funny thing.

today my earth shook

10 years ago at 4:31 am.


shields up
you can't hurt me anymore


sponge bob says... it's the best day ever!

first day of work tomorrow from 7:45am to 2pm...

sleep!